It seems...

Like everyone is having a baby, getting pregnant, or I am literally running into pregnant people in the mall.

I feel a lot of things well up in me, mostly envy...with a sprinkle of saddness and a dash of regret.

I will have my family one way or another...and I know patience is a virtue. I have a lot of patience.

I confessed a scary thought to my husband the other day..I said I had a flash forward...of when we finally get a baby. The baby will be in a carraige, and I will be in a wheel chair and you will be on a jazzy scooter behind me pushing all of us through the mall.

Not funny, but very possible.