"Signed Anonymous"

Thank you to those who have written such open and honest and beautiful notes, to lift my spirits.

For some reason I thought no one ever saw this blog, and I began to think of it as a waste of time. Although I thoroughly enjoy the whole process of thinking of a topic and then seeing where the topic leads me.

But..if you are going to post a response, why post anonymously? Are you afraid? Are you unsure of your own comments? Are you just being mean? Or do you truly have a leg to stand on? Or do you hate your own life so much, you are just spewing crap and whining about your own bad situation? I personally think it is the latter. This is from the entire posting of the second anonymous poster to my blog: I will have to start numbering them since there seem to be so many now!

Anonymous Posted :
Hell? Really? Get a grip. Try food stamps and medicaid. That is hell. Try not being able to get even a job interview. Your surrogate is having problems? Not even close, you spoiled, entitled piece of shit. With a lack of perspective like that, the last thing you deserve is a baby.


Hmmm, do you think the poster is angry about:
1. Being on Medicaid
2. Food stamps?
3. Not being able to get a job?
4. Life in general

I'm thinking Number 4~!

My direct response: Get off the blogs and go to Monster or Career Builder for aforementioned lack of job. Blogging is not where to find one.

Back to my blog, before I go back to one of my THREE JOBS! Which didn't fall into my lap! I got off the computer and sought them out.

I for one, am a very confrontational individual. Perhaps it was my training early on in hardcore muscle gyms, as being the only girl at the time trying to be a bodybuilder, that made me stand up for myself over and over again. I'm not sure. I'm not out to hurt anyone. However, I will not let someone take advantage of me, or screw with me. Ever. If you are a liar, bullshitter or user, I will let you know what I think. And much in the same way, when I find I have ben betrayed (in life who hasn't?) I walk away. Done. It is not easy to get back into my good graces. Not to say that I am not forgiving. I can be. But not all the time. (After all I forgave my father for leaving my mother and collectively ruining eveyone's life at the time). It took some time, but I moved on.

But people who are vicious to be hurtful and mean, and I am speaking to Anonymous 1 & 2 here...You suck. And normally I would feel really bad for someone in your situation. Food stamps and all that jazz. But your ignorance has made it impossible for me to give a shit. Everyone leads the life they want to live. Including me. So next time you pass judgement, and vigorously so, do me a favor and leave your real name. Don't hide. Be proud of your statements. Own them.

Cause it seems like maybe your word, is all you have....