It's Raining Babies

Well, within the last two weeks we have gotten numerous calls to match us up with birth moms carrying infants to be born within a few weeks.
We are hesitant and reluctant to even speak about it, given the nature of our luck on this topic so far, but ...we have been picked by one of the girls and she is due at the end of November.

It is never an easy situation, adoptions, I mean. Most of the young women putting children up for adoption would rather be keeping these children if not for a number of plausible reasons.
No support, no education, and a very bleak outlook on life for starters.

It was incredibly sad to be sitting in front of the birth mother, her sobbing and starting off the conversation..

"I am alone" "I have no one and my life has no future."

Her family is fractured, her boyfriend is a lousy older man who lives at home with his mom, and fathers children out of wedlock in addition to working at Bingo for a living.

She seems lonely, and afraid. She is like a little bird, too afraid to fly.
I am hoping we can help her someway after the birth, to move forward with her life.

And:
I am hopeful that this will be the one.

She invited me the other day to the Dr's. It was just a checkup but she had gotten bigger, and we heard the baby's heartbeat.

It's a girl.

I am trying not to get excited, and I really have felt nothing up until I heard the heartbeat.

Another agency called and also told us we were the first choice of a young couple up in Northern Florida. Due same time, and having a girl. We unfortunately could not commit due to our prior obligations to the first birth mom.

Hopefully our situation works out. I am scheduled to go to the next Drs appointment with her and I have her cell phone number to keep in touch, although calling is awkward because I dont want her to feel like I am stalking her.

She is severely depressed and just having a hard time in general, and while I am trying to be supportive, it gets really hard having one sided conversations. So I try and ask her questions, general things, that hopefully do not bring up painful memories...

I think she understands our pain, our conflict and the fact we have been down this road before, although not quite this far.

Here's to making it the entire trip.